"Bella, I Envy You"

remember the Eclipse's scene when Bella ask Rosalie why she really hates her?

I really love when Rosalie tells Bella that she envy Bella.

this is what happend to me too. I envy someone (MAYBE). that's makes me hates her so much!

but I guess all of people here hates her too, because yes she's really bad person. I think she's the queen of hypocritical on earth. I never hates someone this bad just because I envy her. maybe the presentation is 40% envy, 60% because her attitude and behaviour (her hypocrisy).

ok, I won't discuss about her hypocrisy now. but about why I envy her.

I want to be honest.

I envy her because why the boys flirt to her. um not all the boys ok, just some boys who don't kno who bad she is. (a lot of boys knows how is she). and some of boys who care with her is my bro! ok, not my bro but that closest with me. yes I confess she is beautiful. but NOT her beauty that makes me envy her. but just "WHY?"

the second, that really I envy and hates.

she is close with my 'prospective in-laws' hehe.

I don't know how I can envy her about it. I know she is always be good in front of all people, teachers, and all just for got a good name. but WHY must be E's mom? most of all her organitation is cooperate with E's mom. because she is a "want-do-all-things-person-no-matter-what-is-that-and-can-she-do-that?" and E's mom is an 'important' person too at school.

a little story.

I envy because I can't so that close with E's mom. because I don't really like to too hypocritical with do some help to her when I really can't help that time because I have another work to do. Im a busy girl with my own brain to always thinking by the way. no matter what I thinking about. hehe

and the last but no least.

I envy with her because most of her organitation is with E! how jealous I am!

she can while I don't!

actually, this is my mistakes too to not be active girl like her. actually she is not better than me about dancing, speaking, and all what she do. but from first, Im a girl who don't really like to join any event. and Im a girl who like to be sought not seek for an organitation. :D

I will eliminate this envy. NOW! :D